Oh Time...Stand Still

7.8.17 - A beautiful evening in Springfield, the moon is huge and bright and the evening temps lack the seasonal humidity. The air is still and quiet. Laura just got home yesterday from her FCCLA week in Nashville. Colleen says she is glad she has been gone for two weeks - the previous week to Camp Rivercrest and then she had but a day and went to Nashville. Colleen lies.. I know this because Colleen took special efforts to save back fireworks from the 4th so she could shoot them with Laura.. some spinners, snappers and sparklers. So, on this evening before Colleen and Scott take off to Lexington and Laura stays home to work for the next week - on this night they are out in the driveway doing sparklers and spinners and snappers just like when they were younger. All three participating - all three laughing, giggling - even Scott. On this night when you watch your twin 17 year old girls that have one more year together and then will be off on the own individual adventures. This night when you quietly hear over the fountain in the front yard the two of them quietly whispering and talking. This my friends is a golden moment... so golden and so precious that you turn to your husband who has joined you to watch the merriment and whisper..."Oh, if we could freeze time." This moment, this night, this is what I will reflect back on.. this is what I will pack in my brain for further comfort.. much like you pack you favorite snuggle toy when you are small. You know, the toy that you clutch when the night is so dark and you are so alone that the prayer to your Creator doesn't soothe ..but this memory..it will soothe and it will comfort. It will chase away the nasty stuff that churns in your mind. My mother had Alzheimer's...a devastating disease... really more devastating for the family. I never knew what Mom was thinking or where she was in that fog. I so would have liked that - just to know what she was going through. I console myself that some of the thoughts she was having were golden moments like these. Hopefully she stored away many and could find them to soothe during the long lonely nights. A memory that calmed her mind and provided so much joy and peace. Once the Alzheimer's took its hold I don't know if she prayed or how she coped in those dark moments. I only hope she had a memory like July 4th on July 8th. One that gave her has much joy and happiness as the memory I will have of a beautiful evening in a driveway with three teenagers and some fireworks.

The blog purpose - So I have been contemplating how I should use this blog and I have decided I will pick random topics and record my views. In amongst all this I may reveal a bit about me, my life and experiences. Realizing that this will not be a "most talked about" blog, I just want to leave thoughts and ideas here for those that stumble on this to ponder or for those that I reveal the blog location to learn about me. Again, this will be very random.

Let's resurrect this blog... it has been six years since I have been here. I almost forgot it existed but out of the blue it came to my mind one day. It is like the Holy Spirit has been nudging me to reopen the blog and begin to write again. I don't believe anyone is reading this blog..at all. But that is okay. Maybe I can go here to write away my concerns and my worries and my frustrations. There is lots to update the world on as I travel the road as the mom of four. Until I have more time...

Blog/Blogging/Blogger - To Blog or Not To Blog?

So I continue to process the idea of blogging or not blogging. Many things come to my mind -
Should I blog?
Who blogs?
Why blog?
What really is a blog?
What could I possibly say that would interest any readers?

I have spent the past couple of years reading various blogs - some on stamping, some on crafting, some on couponing... My friend Robyn has a blog that talks about her family and I casually keep up on that blog - she has ventured into product testing and writing reviews.. If you are interested you can find her blog at http://www.coolestmommy.com/

There was an entire movie of which I am aware devoted to blogging - Julie & Julia. In that blog, Julie wrote every day about what she made out of the Julia Child's Joy of Cooking cookbook.. Her blog was read... so much so that they made a movie..imagine that??

But what do I have to offer? Should I really blog?... I guess by the mere fact that I am posting this on the net I am already blogging although does it mean anything if no one reads it? Awww, yes, another question.

Having done some quick research on Wikipedia I have found that blogs are posted on the net for almost everything - personal, corporations, organizations, by genre, media type, etc. Actually Wikipedia an enormous amount of info about blogs..you can read that here http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Blog

So after processing this what does it come down to for me? My goal would be to know that someone is reading my blog and getting an idea, a laugh or a thought that is new and encouraging.. Wonder if I can do that?

So now... am I now a blogger??? Yet another question to ponder...more to come...

Okay, here is an interesting idea...as I was on my walk today to the bank, post office, clothing store and library I thought to myself . "Uh, maybe I should resurrect my blog.." I deleted everything I once posted and now here I have an actual site on the web where I can wax poetic if I choose... intersting thought, don't you think? I always wanted to be John Boy Walton - but instead of a Big Chief tablet and pencil I have the web right at my fingertips... all of you (five if I am lucky) out there reading my thoughts, ideas, desires (okay, may not desires). I will ponder this more fully and I ascertain what my mission or goal with this would be. Is there anyone out there that would want to read?? If you find me and have read this post a yea or nea (did I even spell that last word correctly...mmmm)